i don't understand.

these moments aren't happening so much anymore, but it did happen this evening while i went for a walk at sunset.

it's like my self talks to my self:

i can't believe you get to live here.
wait, you live here?
as if this is real life.
have you seen this place? (lewes) it's gorgeous, and you get to live here.
what on earth are you doing here and how did you get to be here?

england still has the ability to floor me.

i've been reading the seven longings of the human heart this past week and it's blowing my mind. why are we so afraid of beauty? well, maybe you're not, but i was. maybe it's because of society. maybe it's because the world has managed to pervert it. but, beauty is so important. true beauty draws us in. to Him. it's a mystery that we marvel at and brings us closer to Him. i am so getting this and, i've only just finished chapter three. i pretty much wrote the entire first chapter in my journal last week.

things are starting to make sense. things are starting to re-align. it's exciting.