in the last couple of days...

i’m packing up, moving house tomorrow-ish. bunking with my friend, rachel for an unspecified amount of time. just waiting to land, really. i’m so thankful for rachel and our friendship and the fact that she’s excited about yours truly moving in. thanks rachel!!!

i’ve been going through my belongings and how on earth i managed to accumulate the amount of stuff i have, i don’t know.  can’t believe i came to this country with 2 suitcases and a carry-on. insane. and, everything i own must fit in my car. i think it’ll work, as i sit here sizing it all up.

looking at my suitcase and nothing in there is what i brought from home last february. i am looking at a new wardrobe. i went through my coats/jackets this afternoon and experienced a harsh reality. that amazing leather military-style jacket from danier i bought last boxing day? yeah…remember this one?

looks awful now. i could wrap it around me. that smart, long trench-coat i bought while i was in university? i could fit another person in there with me (slight exaggeration, maybe half a person…a really skinny half person). that blue-green jacket i bought during one of my many trips to england looks boxy. 

i have 4 dresses, which let’s face it, i never really wore (except once to a friend’s wedding) seems to hang off me now. that was a crap load of money, people. and, i’m disgusted. can anyone tell me how ebay works?

i have 2 pairs of jeans – one from gap and another red herring that are baggy…and i got barely 2 months wear out of them. that’s not fair. part of me wants to hang onto them as i can’t believe this is going to last. but, it’s been 7 months and i’ve managed to drop 40 pounds.

am i complaining? i think i am. i shouldn’t. i haven’t felt (or some might argue looked) this healthy in a long time. and, i feel good about myself and i like what i’m seeing.  oh no! is that bad?!!?!?! am i a horrible person? my cousin told me she thought Iid i'd grown taller. i laughed and told her it was an illusion.