england won today.

you've been forewarned, this post is ugly.

why did i decide to start work this week? why did i decide to leave my only support system...my family to come live down here? why did i do all this knowing that i would be getting my period this week. knowing full well that this is the time when i'm uber mean to myself, i'm clumsy and i get bruises because of all the stupid things i manage to collide into. when my patience percentile hovers around 2%. here's some highlights of the lovely and enjoyable things that happened to me today.

1) i completed 9 turn arounds today. (yes i was keeping score, because i was in a keeping-score-kind-of-mood) english streets aren't very forgiving. they are either do or die. you either know where you're going, or you don't. england doesn't give you much time to get in the proper lane, england doesn't give you much time to make any decisions really. and before you know it, you're in the wrong lane, making the wrong turn and backtracking in rush hour traffic. i envy the english drivers who know where they're going...where are they going? and because there's no room in england, you literally only get one shot and if you're not sure...there's no time to slow down physically (or mentally for that matter). oh, and another thing...those turnarounds i was talking about? 60 percent of those were because i couldn't find the street sign. i guess the english are also psychic in their street identifying capabilities.

2) now...i can't remember what else happened. oh, i managed to spill tomato sauce on the white duvet cover in my hotel room 20 minutes ago. that was kind of exciting. and then on the way to fill up the kettle and grab the laundry powder to try and remove the stains, i tripped over my cowboy boot and knocked over the garbage bin.

after work i told myself i needed to see the ocean. i hadn't seen the ocean in a couple of days and i needed to stand and look at it for a little while. to make sure it was still there, i guess. to help with some perspective and talk to God for a bit. sometimes problems don't seem so big when you look at the ocean. i'm going to try and find an apartment as close to the ocean as i can get.

now i need something mind numbing to watch - the hills should do it.