ugh

see people! this is why we can't come home with junk food because i will succumb to its cries and pleas to be eaten. (not mentioning any names - banana cream pie). just caught myself with a spoonfull of nutella in my mouth while waiting for supper. i don't even like that sh*t. i will redeem myself knowing this is going to be a carb-free din din. maybe i can blame this on pre pms.

said goodbye to family yesterday. had a lovely christmasy style dinner and brunch at the mill the next day to say goodbye to even more family. if i could just sneak away quietly that would make me feel better. i avoid goodbyes. i don't like it because we think goodbyes = emotional experience. then i feel bad when i don't feel emotional and then i feel like i'm treating this experience with insensitivity and then i think something's wrong with me and that i've let people down because they're emotional saying goodbye and i'm not reciprocating the same feeling. sigh.

so, what else is happening? hair cut tomorrow!!